Monday, June 2, 2008

Jacob con't...

I can't begin to tell you how uncontrollable my tears were when I read this.

The unthinkable, the thing that has made our hearts tremble, happened. Every one of us who has a special child has worried (uncontrollably at times) to leave. Karen was gone when Jacob died. The poor woman was out for dinner for her birthday (today). She wrote about the facts, but left out the emotions. Please pray for her. I was asleep when Joshua died, but it was different because he was between us. We were with him. I can't imagine the grief, the angry, and chaos in Karen's heart right now.

This one hit me hard. So hard.


  1. I just read it before I came to your blog and my heart is in my throat right now. I can't imagine....

    My prayers are with that family.

  2. I think this is hitting many of us so hard because Jacob was making it. Yes, he was having problems, but he outlived so many of the expectations for his life. It was the same with Joshua. You see a baby who isn't supposed to be here, living and even thriving, and just feel so much hope. That this baby might be the one who really makes it, the one that others look to for inspiration when they receive a similar diagnosis. And when it ends... it's so hard to face the reality that every baby won't just be ok.

    I also followed Jacob closely because of a connection to the area. I grew up about 6 blocks from the church where his memorial is being held.

  3. It hit me hard too....thinking of you.

  4. Oh My Goodness. Tears are all I see. Words are just not enough. Both you and Karen are in my thoughts and prayers today and in the days to come.

    I read your comment on Jacob's blog and I cried again about the loss of your baby son. I can imagine the loss of Jacob makes losing Joshua more and more raw. Again.... No words. Just thoughts and prayers with you and Karen both.

    Jennifer ~ Spokane, WA

  5. I agree! My heart was broken for Karen when I heard that she was not able to be with sweet little Jacob when he went to meet Jesus. I can't imagine the feeling of losing a child & I know you can. I still pray for your family & I am praying for Jacob's family as well.

  6. Susie,

    Jacob's death has hit me so hard, just as Joshua's did. These two little warriors stole my heart and I hoped against hope they would be here for such a long time. I hurt for Karen and Jason as I do for you and Matt. These little guys hold a special place in my heart. Elijah is in my heart heavy too as we wait word of his birth. I pray for Steve and Maria to have precious time as you had, never enough but so blessed. You taught me how to understand this condition by following Joshua's journey, with my heart in my throat, aching. I pray for you guys every day and love your updates. You are doing it, hard as I can't imagine, and I admire your faith in the Lord who gets us all through. Love you guys very much.

    Laurie in Ca.

  7. Hugs, sweetie. I'm thinking of you.