Monday, May 16, 2011

What do you say when you have nothing to say?

Well, if I have nothing to say, but I start typing, the outcome is either excellent. Or sad.

I have a feeling this is a sad one. But you can keep reading if you like.

Truth be told: I'm stressed out.

I'm not sleeping well - mostly because I keep falling asleep putting kids to bed (or getting them BACK to sleep again) and then waking up at 10 at night with a burst of energy. 2am rolls around - like it is right now (2:11am Monday) and I'm just now getting tired.

I'm overwhelmed by my house. I told my sister tonight, "I'm at the point where I walk from one room to the next and get more overwhelmed with each room because each is more cluttered than the last!"

Naomi is a firecracker. For real. If you knew her in NZ, just multiply it by like 5 ... she's a live wire! And if you know her here in the US, well then you know a bit of what I'm talking about. I could chase her all day long and she'd still find trouble. I say stuff like, "Get your toothbrush out of the toilet!" and "No you may not stand on me!" and "Get in bed for the 500th time!" all day long. There is nothing she will not climb. Nothing she will not touch. Nothing she will not ask for. She has dumped 4 or 5 bottles of spice on my carpet/couch and 2 bottles of vanilla. Yes, I lock my pantry - but sometimes it gets left open by Oceana or by me when I'm cooking - and next thing I know my couch smells like oregano, or my carpet is faintly orange from the seasoned salt.

Oceana is a drama queen. DR.AH.MA. This is a portion of my day I wish not to discuss. Ay yi yi!

I love my life. I really do! Don't get me wrong. I'm not complaining. I'm just overwhelmed. And I've been trying to find balance in my life and get myself organized and and and and....

Instead, I just get more stressed out and more overwhelmed.

So, for now I think I'll get some sleep and hope that Naomi's 2-year-molars stay hushed for the night .... tomorrow is a new day.


  1. Hang in there!! Sending good thoughts your way :)

  2. I feel yur pain sistah!
    I have me an almost 5 year old a just turned two year old and a 4 month old suckling.
    I love my kids (and want more!) but oY! by 4 o'clock every day I need a 3 hour nap.

  3. It is difficult when they are little, but just imagine what dynamic personalities they will have in their teen and adult years!!! Looking back, I was happier to have active children interested in the world than some of the bumps on logs that my friends children were (and as adults, still are...boring!!).

  4. awwe... I know what it is like all too well, Luckily when us moms do have great days it helps us forget all the overwhelming ones! If it makes you feel any better my life stinks right now too ;)

  5. Hang in there, mama. I've been there, done that. I had 3 babies in 4 1/2 years time so I definitely remember those HARD toddler/preschooler years. You *will* get through this. I know it seems impossible right now, but you WILL. Hang on tight!

    A quote I recently heard: The days are long, but the years are short. :)

  6. well it sounds to me like you are normal! I do believe that little girls of the 2006 vintage are a particularly sassy bunch. At least our one is. And messy. OMG! Some days not making the evening news is my measure of being a good Mum, never mind the mess!

  7. I know how you feel a thousand times over. It's actually validating to read it on your blog, because, honestly, I thought I was the only one who fell asleep putting my kids to bed, only to wake up at 10 a.m. with a mountain of work ahead of me and tiny, tiny sliver of personal time at the end of the tunnel.

    My four-year-old can go days communicating only through whining. Demanding to eat nothing but sugar. My two-year-old is not content until he has dented the drywall -- if not his sister's head.

    And the hardest part is having to time to yourself -- EVER -- except the aforementioned 10 p.m. - 2 a.m. slot. But your kids are quite delightful and if it makes you feel any better, sometimes I think: "Hmmmm, I bet the lady on Be Strong and Courageous would not be as close to screaming as I am right now," and that helps me calm down. So thanks, girly!

  8. Oh, dear - what busy days!!! Praying for you & hoping you can get some rest! I feel the same way about our house - we moved in December & there are SO many things I thought I'd do 'after we moved in' but I have not. SO overwhelming!!! :( I feel, though, like I can either keep up on cleaning the put-together parts & being a good mom or neglect one of those two things to do the 'projects', so for now, I'm being a mom & attempting to clean the parts of the house we use the most. :)