Buy more underwear. Haha. Okay, so we did go shopping for under-stuff and socks today. But not because it was raining - because it was on sale. But it would be funny, huh? I still have clean stuff in the drawers! Seriously.
Had a rough time at church this morning. I think that church is just for me these days. Seems like whatever I'm dealing with on the day is what Mike talks about. Okay, so granted - usually it's Joshua stuff - but I find it strange/interesting that he always have something to say that really affects me. Obviously this is a God-thing. But it makes Sunday mornings exhausting. I've found it difficult - particularly this morning. And that's hard because people want to introduce themselves, and there I am trying not to look angry and pissed off (which I probably fail miserably at). It's not so much that I'm PO'ed but that I'm not very good at showing emotions - beyond anger.
When I was 15 I went for 9 months without crying - like NOTHING for 9 months. I just don't cry. And when I do it's for 10 minutes maximum. Even with Joshua - I cried the first few days and at his funeral - but not since. Thinking about him all the time, teary-eyed a few times, yes - but not actually crying. So when things affect me - like church/sermons/worship/God-stuff - I don't know how to react. Sometimes I get a few tears. But after that I get that PO'ed look on my face. And I don't realize it's there for a little while - probably just long enough to ward off anyone wanting in introduce themselves. Crap. I like meeting people!
Side note * My daughter is sitting on the couch eating a whole carrot. She looks like a rabbit *
As you've all probably realized I'm having a rough few days - and what am I doing with my time???
What on earth else would I be doing?