i am alive. in case you were questioning that one.
its raining. not that you particularly care. but i put out laundry yesterday. it has now been rained on approximately 12 times. every time i think to bring it in and put through the spin cycle (again) it's pouring rain (again). i don't like getting wet.and it's not getting any wetter.
oceana pooped and peed on the rug yesterday. i know you didn't ask. but you would have, had you asked about potty-training. that's what happens when you think your child can be trusted without underwear for a few minutes.
how-to-do-that-collage-thing-of-oceana. get a gmail email address. download picasa from google/gmail - a photo program. its the easiest, moron-0riented picture program. if you have a blog (with blogger/blogspot) you can mark pictures, press "blog this" and voila - you have a post with pictures in it. you can also mark pictures and a press "collage" which takes you to three or four options for collage. that one of oceana is one option. another option was those pictures of easter sunrise over each other. pretty cool. it also offers simple changes (like i'd love photoshop, but this program is free, so that's just fine) like highlights, shadows, sharpening, sepia, b&w, etc. easy-peasy. and when you connect your card reader it pops up automatically for downloading.
i haven't been to the doctor, despite everyone's kind suggestions. not that it's out - just haven't thought all the way through it just yet. considering contacting a friend who's a counselor. don't know her phone number. doing the classic girl-second-guessing-myself-thing.
im ok. as in (are you okay? how are you doing?). i've been writing about joshua the last few days. just trying to chronologically get his story on paper. chronologically is essentially out the window at present. but it's the parts that i didn't blog that are essential. like when we found out, when his cele ruptured, and when he died.
on another thought:
there's this ad on tv every day now for wspa - world society for the protection of animals. and it irks me. not to start a riot here on my blog - but i eat meat and enjoy it heartily. but i hate this ad. it shows pictures of chimpanzees in cages, bears "dancing", dogs that are uncared for, a donkey limping (NZ'ers - i'm sure you've seen it!). and the commentators saying stuff like, without your help we can't keep this animals from being orphaned, used as circus sideshows, or beaten and uncared for.
while i don't condone neglect or abuse of animals - GIVE ME A BREAK! take out the animal names and put it this way. "Angelique lives in a cage. Her pimp keeps her there when she's not on the street", "Carlos dances and sings on the streets, begging for money", "Neila was orphaned, when her parents were brutally murdered in a genocide", "Jacob walks with a limp because he stepped on a landmine, left by guerillas".
it frustrates me that so much attention is given to animals, when there are children being trafficked - around the world - by greedy, evil people. it frustrates me that people who give "animals rights" are the same ones who would have aborted Joshua.
because a chimpanzee's life is worth more than my son's. right?