Wednesday, March 19, 2008

The video we showed at Joshua's service

The service was beautiful - everything I wanted.
Here's the video I made Joshua for the service.

If you wish to use it yourself, get the url on youtube - it's on my channel "travellingmummy".


  1. Susie,
    This is just gorgeous
    I LOVE the writing at the end, and i love the way you ended it - met Jesus face to face... see you when we get there.

    Just beautiful - simple words but so moving. Sitting here crying as I think of all you've lost

    There were some images in the movie of Oceana and Joshua together that made me realise too just what she has lost. How is she doing as the days move on?

  2. Beautiful video, Susie. I'm so glad the service was everything you wanted it to be. I will continue to pray for you for the journey ahead.
    Much Love, Jennie (from BF)

  3. Oh Susie! What a beautiful video and I'm so glad the service was everything you wanted it to be. These were just wonderful songs to play and I loved seeing Joshua's little smile (I don't think you ever posted his smile). He is absolutely beautiful and now I can see him smiling with Jesus.

    Thank you for sharing and my husband and I are still praying for you guys.

  4. That was beautiful! I pray for you all every day.



  5. That is truly amazing. Thank you for sharing the blessing of your son with us.

  6. Susie: The video was amazing. You did a fabulous job. From those of us who have come to know and love your family, you are still in our prayers.

    Karen in TN

  7. Perfect. Absolutely perfect. The tears streamed down my face. Wasn't he ticklish! You did a beautiful, exquisite job, Suzie.

  8. Susie-
    The video was a wonderful reminder of Joshua's beautiful life. Now I have tears streaming down my face, not for Joshua because we know he is healed and full of joy and already celebrating eternal life, but for you as you miss him as you wait until that wonderful reunion. MY three year old daughter watched the video with me and sheis now making a card for Joshua. I asked her where Joshua is and she said up in heaven I said how are you going to get the card to him she said soon she will go up in heaven and take it to him. (I hope not to soon.) Just wanted to let you know of another little life he has touched.
    Hugs and Prayer
    Rachel in PA

  9. Your video is a beautiful tribute to your amazing angel, Joshua. I have never met you, or Joshua, but your journey and his life have touched mine. I have been and will continue to pray for your beautiful family. God Bless!

    Meredith in Lynchburg,VA

  10. Susie,
    I loved the video. What a sweet boy. Dave and I have been praying for you, Matt, and Oceana. May God wrap his loving arms around you. There's a song I wanted to tell you about. It's a Natalie Grant song called "Held" you can listen to it here
    She wrote it for a friend who lost a baby at 2 months. I'm not sure if it was a miscarriage or shortly after birth, but it really has comforted me.

    Holding you up in prayer,

  11. This is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing it.

  12. That was absolutely beautiful, Susie. I loved all the pictures, but my favorite was the list at the end.

    I'm going to put the video on my blog (, so others can see it, too.

    Much love to you, your hubby and Oceana.

    We love you all.


  13. This is the most beautiful video for Joshua and his amazing time with you.
    Your words at the end capture it all.
    I am praying for the three of you as you travel this valley, asking God to pour out His peace and grace for each day for you. Thank you so much for sharing this precious boy with us. He truly is strong and courageous and Gods Little Warrior. Praying for your broken hearts.

    Love, Laurie in Ca.

  14. That video was beautiful! I hope you know how many lives your son has touched, more than most adults could ever hope to. Your family and your precious son have renewed my faith in God. I hope that I have the priveledge to meet Joshua in Heaven some day!
    Alissa in MA

  15. Thank you for sharing the lovely video played at Joshua's service. Thank you for sharing Joshua, your family, and most importantly, your faith. We cannot comprehend the joy that is Joshua's safe in the arms of Jesus.

    The Lord heals the brokenhearted. May He comfort you all.
    There's help at

    You and the entire family are in my prayers.
    Carolyn in MD

  16. What a beautiful video. Your little man was precious.

    I especially love the pictures of Joshua and Oceana together what a gift to get to see them interact together. You can tell she loves him so much!

    Thinking about you all the time. Blessing and prayer from NY.

    We love you guys,
    The Goodson's

  17. Susie, Thank you for sharing. What a wonderful video documenting such special moments with Joshua. I can't tell you how much it meant to me to see him smile in those videos. What a precious smile.


  18. Just beautiful Susie!! You guys are in my thoughts and prayers! How is Oceana doing? I hope ok! Joshua changed my life so I wanted to say Thankyou for that.....

  19. Susie,

    I've been reading your blog since someone posted it on the April 2007 babyfit site. It is the first thing that I log into when I get to work, and I was always so excited to hear of your latest adventures with Joshua, dreading the day late last week when I heard that first it broke, then checking hourly to see how you were all doing after that. I found out that he died about 30 minutes before my Friday night bible study, and we all prayed for your family there.

    I am so glad that I watched this video at home before coming into work today. I guess seeing the video of Joshua, versus only seeing still pictures previously, made it all the more real to me. Seeing your love for him and how peaceful he was, was amazing. I cried like a baby, for you and your baby.

    I have cherished the 11 months that I have had with my daughter, but I seem to be holding her more closely these days, and realize that her health is truly a blessing to us.

    You are wise beyond your years and I appreciate what you have done for so many families by telling your story here.

    We are praying for you. Kristin

  20. Susie and Matt - what a beautiful collection of video and photos. Joshua was a beautiful baby - I'm so thankful that you had the blessing of 67+ days with your wonderful son. And obviously he was showered with love and hugs and kisses! Thank you so much for sharing this part of your lives with all of us "anonymous" folks out here in cyberspace - your courage, your faith, and your love for this little man have blessed and inspired everyone who has been following your story! I will continue to pray for all of you -

    God bless you -
    Jen in Ohio, USA

  21. Thank you Susie, Matt & Oceana for sharing Joshua's story with us.

    I look forward to following your story in the days to come.

    Your Angel is always near.
    Karen, Cape Town South Africa

  22. Wow! That was so beautiful. Thank you for sharing it with us.

  23. That was beautiful! What a precious little miracle. I will never forget him, or what he did for me. I now hug my son more, rock him to sleep and try to cherish every second with him. Thank you for telling his story, and being an amazing mom to him! Your family is loved and in our prayers, Your sister in Christ, Columbus, OH Ashley

  24. That was beautiful. I have tears in my eyes.

    Sending positive thoughts to your family for strength and healing in the days and weeks to come.

  25. what a beautiful angel. thank you for sharing your journey with us, complete strangers, yet sisters in Christ. praying for you and your family...

  26. What a beautiful tribute to the sweet life of Joshua.

    Praying for you and your family.

    Houston, TX

  27. That's so sweet. Thank you so much for sharing his life.

  28. That was just perfect Susie! I can only imagine how hard it was for you at the service. I continue to pray for all of you.

    How are you holding up? I know we are all thinking of you.

  29. That was absolutely beautiful! What a wonderful tribute to Joshua's life! I would like to add that he wrapped blog land around his finger too!

    May peace be with you!

  30. Absolutely beautiful. Thank you Susie for sharing, not just the video, but your family and Joshua's life with us.

  31. That was a beautiful and amazing video. My heart goes out to you and your family.

  32. ABSOLUTELY THE MOST BEAUTIFUL TRIBUTE, EVER! Well done, Mummy! Thank you for sharing the video. Joshua was (and will remain) so pure of heart. He exemplified all things pure and brave. In his short time here on earth, he indeed lived a full life...He was and will remain so beautiful...He has touched my heart so deeply and so profoundly. God bless you all! I am praying for your peace and strength as you adjust to your "new normal."

    All God's Blessings!!!

    Trisha Jurgemeyer

  33. Wow Susie! That was beautiful!!! I especially loved the end and the list of all things Joshua experienced in his lifetime. How amazing God is to have given you such precious time and memories of your son.

    I will continue to pray for you and your family in the days to come. May peace flood your spirit and may comfort be readily yours in your times of need.

  34. Thank you so much for sharing with us. I sit here crying because your son was sent from the Father to show us that miricles do exist and that God is still God and he is in control and only He knows the time we have here on earth. Thank you so much for sharing you little miricle and your family with us. You are so strong and corageous. And in his 67 days and 7 bonus hours he taught us more then some people have in 99 years!

    Marisa in Alabama

  35. That is amazing, Susie. God's peace to you, Matt, and Oceana.

  36. I love his little smiles as he had his face stroked! :) What a beautiful little boy. Thank you for sharing his story with us. Praying for you in Michigan,

  37. Susie - My heart aches because I know you miss your boy. But all I can say after that video is WOW! In such a short period of time, Joshua's life touched so many. I can't for the life of me see how someone could look at his life and not see the hand of God in every blessed moment. I am so thankful for the things you, Matt and Oceana got to experience with your sweet boy! Praying for your comfort through this grieving process.

  38. Matt and Suzie:

    This is a moving tribute to your son.

    With countless others, you have been in our prayers from the start.

    Who is equal to such mysteries and trials? None, its seems, but He who has sustained you through them.

    Can a person rejoice and grieve at the same time over the same situation? It will seem strange to the world that you do so for Joshua. But for those who walk with the "man of sorrows" who came "for the joy set before him", the two are not at odds. May God continue to aid you on that strange but glorious road.

    Yours in Christ,

    Larry Knowles

  39. I'm crying right now as I type this. It's one thing to see pictures and little video clips of Joshua with the hiccups, but the video of him smiling just makes him more real, more familiar, more endearing and I can see and feel how strong his perfect spirit is and I miss him, even from half way around the world.

    I hope you are getting through each day as well as you can right now, Susie. I'm continuing to pray for you. Your video is beautiful. I'm going to put it up on my blog.

  40. What a beautiful tribute to your beautiful son. Thank you so much for sharing him with us.

  41. absolutely beautiful and a testament to who Joshua was on earth and is in heaven......God bless and your entire family and nurses, and all those close to Joshua are in my prayers. God bless you

  42. this is awesome! tears are flowing...

  43. Susie,

    That was absolutely beautiful. I loved the pics of Oceana leaning over and kissing Joshua, towards the end of the video, especially the one where her eyes were closed. It was as if she was saying, "I love you sooooo much, little brother" in her very own way. Thank you for sharing this.

    Devin in Illinois

  44. Susie,
    That is so precious. He did get to experience a lifetime of love, hugs & kisses. I am so thankful that he has parents that love him enough to give him a chance at life! You are a blessing & you have very blessed children.

  45. Thinking about your family every day at least. As we're learning more bad news about my baby's spinal cord, I'm still thinking about you all and it makes me appreciate our situation...appreciate having the opportunity to get to take care of him still.

    Sigh...I just wish I knew the right words to help you and your family. I don't, so I'll stop now and just send my best prayers and wishes and hopes instead.

    Take care,

  46. I loved the video. What a wonderful thing to have. We're still praying for you in Alberta, Canada.

  47. Thank you for sharing. He lived a wonderful life- obviously FULL of love!! Praying for you in Indina!

  48. What a beautiful tribute to your son's life! He touched so many lives in his time here! How proud you must be of him.

  49. The video was absolutly heart touching, thank you for sharing it with the world. It made me smile and cry at the same time. You,Matt,& Oceana are in my prayers. Dianne

  50. The video is lovely. Joshua crammed so much into his little life, and had such an impact on so many people all across the globe.
    I'm so glad his service was everything you wanted it to be - I look back on my son Will's service as a time of peace, and as well as the inevitable grief, a time of rejoicing in all that he had been and all that he meant to us.

    'You, our sweet boy,
    Have taught us to cram
    A lifetime of love
    Into such a short span.'

    Take care Susie and Matt, and be gentle with yourselves.
    With much love XXX

  51. Hi Guys, what a moving funeral! I just wanted to thank you on behalf of the Ruel Foundation for already raising enough money to pay for one child's life changing surgery. the child is called Daym Villaneuva and can be seen on our website - We love you guys so much and really pray every blessing on you all. Johnny

  52. Thank you for sharing.

  53. what a beautiful shining life to have led. Thank you for sharing with us... you have touched so many lives. My heart aches for you Mama...

    much love from Ontario.

  54. Lynchburg VA - found you from Nate and Tricia and baby Gwyneth's site.
    You and your family brought honor to our Lord throughout your pregnancy and Joshua's time here. I can't wait to meet this fine young champion some glad morning!

    I am asking my Jesus to give you the deepest desires of your heart.

    Thank you for teaching me what love is.


  55. I am praying for you. I love the video. What a beautiful story and beautiful little life. The Lord bless you and keep you and make his face shine upon you...I know it is shining on Joshua as he dances whole before his King.

  56. My favorite part is near the beginning of the video where Joshua's eyes are open and he's smiling! Just precious!!


  57. Susie,
    That video is beyong beautiful!!! What a beautiful, peaceful life Joshua had. I'm in tears because I'm saddened that you had to experience his loss. But I am praying for peace in your heart. You will see him again one day.
    God bless.
    Jessi from babyfit and Ohio.

  58. That's absolutely beautiful Susie! It made me cry! You can tell Joshua was happy and loved throughout his life.

    God bless you all during this time.


  59. Susie - Its absolutely beautiful, you guys shared so much love in way too short of a time- Joshua is so lucky that he had you as his parents - you did such a wonderful thing choosing his life even though you knew you would eventually lose your sweet angel. I hope that you can start the healing process , Know that there are many prayers being sent your way and let God help you find the strength to make it through this loss. I finished my project for you and I will send it tomorrow- probably to your office since Im not sure how long it will take to get there and I dont want to chance you not getting it. Take care,

  60. This video made me cry tears of joy. Joshua was a very special boy. He touched so many lives. I just know he's wathing over the 3 of you.

  61. Been praying for you all! This is a beautiful tribute to a Beautiful little boy Joshua.

  62. He truly was an Angel sent from God. Thank you for sharing and thank you especially for the video footage. He looked so much like his Mama!!

    Keeping you in our prayers.

  63. Your Joshua touches many heart even in Heaven. Bless your precious family.

  64. That was the most beautiful, perfect, touching video I have ever seen. You captured him perfectly. What a beautiful smile! I love it. I cried the entire time but it was just beautiful. I want to show everyone I know. Perfect tribute to a perfect little boy. I love him! Good thoughts for you constantly.

  65. How absolutely perfect. Oh, to live a life as full and to glorify God as well as Joshua Sams.

  66. This is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.

    I can tell that Joshua had a wonderful life during his short journey - and he was obviously so loved and so peaceful.

    He is the most perfect baby I've ever seen ♥

  67. Susie,

    Wow. Awesome video for an awesome life used by God. As the father of Jacob Fahmer ( we've been travelling a very similar path these days. And while I can't claim to know all of what your family is going through, we've had similar situations and I have to say that it's good to see you being honest and trusting God through those honestly difficult times. Be strong and courageous. Don't grow weary in doing good. Trust that He who has begun a good work in you will fulfill it. You, and all that you touch, are being conformed to the image of Jesus through this situation. I hate being the one going through pain... but God does bring beauty from pain. I've had numerous people talk about "Jacob" writing a book as well... and I encourage you to do it. I know that we're going to make our own, if nothing else, just for ourselves. I think it would be interesting to have a compilation book of stories about Joshua's, Jacob's, Eva's and others around the world who are going through similar things around the same time period. Anyways... May God continue to uphold you and strengthen you and your family while you go through this trying time of moving and such ... and then may He bless you with time to enjoy one another as a family as you seek Him.

    Jason Fahmer

  68. Susie, Thank you for sharing this with us all. I found your story to be moving as well as uplifting. It is wonderful to see how much you were blessed by your son's life and see something of the influence that he is having across the world. Awesome! When I saw your photo I thought I knew you, then I realised that I just reconginsed Jesus through you. I look forward to meeting you all one day in eternity.
    Student Midwife