Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Wordless Wednesday With A Twist

If you are looking for Joshua's Day, please stay tuned. It will be the next post so that it is at the top of the blog for a little bit. If you're looking for the rest of Wordless Wednesday With A Twist, visit American Mum. She's found me along my journey, and I her. She's a pretty awesome lady, and she runs a pretty fun fotofest.

This month the theme is New Beginnings, Change, and Goals. Now, as I mentioned in a previous blog I'm not into making a huge list of things to fail at for the year. (Said tongue-in-cheek) of course. But here's a few things I plan to do. Some next chapter goals. Each new day presents a chance to change. And while I don't think January 1 has anything amazing to offer in terms of change and chance - it is a new day. I, for one, feel I am at the beginning of a new chapter.

New Chapter Headings:

Chapter Heading: "Homebirth"- I've wanted a homebirth with each of my babies. Circumstances, fear, and medical interventions have made this impossible. But this time around my midwife and I see nothing stopping this from happening. I'm really excited about the prospect of having my own surroundings for this little girl's debut. I'm nearly as excited about homebirth as I am about the prospect of beginning labor on my own - without the evil crochet hook and the IV!

Upon having that homebirth, I reach another chapter. It's called "Get Fit". See, while I lose my baby weight at a reasonable rate, I have not even been fit. Ever. Like, even when I weighed 110lbs. I was thin. But I wasn't fit. I want to be able to climb that mountain without dying. It's only a 45 minute hike. But at this point in my life (and previous to this pregnancy as well) I have not been able to do it without stopping all the time, huffing, and puffing, and generally being disgusted with myself. I'm gonna climb that extinct volcano! (Note to Farm Fresh Iowa - there's a volcano for Aviana!)

Chapter Heading: "115" - I want to weight that much. Please notice that I have ONE foot on the scale in order to get that number. And it's in pounds, not kilos. Please do not notice my funky nailpolish. It was corroding and then my father wrote on my toenail with a Sharpie. He's so mature for nearly 50.

I thought I'd throw this 4 Little Men & Girly Twins type shot at you. It doesn't have a chapter heading. Oh wait, it does. "Don't Gain 57lbs Again".

Chapter Heading: "Better Momma". I have a quick temper, a quick boiling point, and a 2 1/2 year old. I want her to feel loved and appreciated all the time. Even when my boiling point and her naughtyness overlap. I love her to pieces, and I want to learn to love her, discipline her, educate her, and shape her better.

Chapter Heading: "What The Heck Is An Aperature?". I want to be a better photographer. I have the possibilities, the oppurtunities, and the gear. I just need to get my rear in gear. Please notice that while you can only see the corner of my face, you can see a lot more of it in the reflection of Matt's sunglasses. The beautiful 50mm lens I got for Christmas is far too close to be taking high school style photos with.

Chapter Heading: "I love you" - I want to love this man better. I want to be a better parter-in-crime for him. I want to teach him that shaving more than once every two weeks is a good thing. But don't tell him I said that. But goodness gracious, I know I'll be 70 and still looking at a scruffy face because Matt doesn't like shaving. His love for shaving is right alongside his love for sticking his fingers in a running blender. I love this man. I really do. He may be quiet, he may be incredibly different than me, but good grief he's amazing. And he loves me. And he puts up with me. I love him a whole heap. And I want to learn to love him a whole heap more.


  1. Susie,
    What a great post!! A home birth, huh?? You are a much braver girl than me!! I think it's wonderful if that is what you feel is best for your family! I will definately be praying for you in that!!
    Also, I have a quick temper with my kids, too, (ages 4, almost 3 & 6 months). I am working very hard at keeping mine in check better! I mean, I'm not a raving lunatic or anything, but like you I want them to always feel loved & secure!!! It's hard to make them feel very loved when you're screaming at them, ha! I have discovered that with my kids it doesn't matter how mad they make me, they're boys (little men) & they simply don't care if they've made me mad, ha!
    I hope you have a wonderful Joshua's 1st birthday!!! I will be thinking of all of you. I can't believe it's been a year!
    Emily in Mississippi

  2. I have a feeling Matt's hatred of shaving has something to do with him HAVING to shave while in high school. It's the same reason I now hate to wear skirts. Being given no choice for several years makes one quite rebellious later...

  3. I loved this post!
    On a side note though I am curious what new lens you got and why? I have thought about a 50 mm lens that would hopefully help me with a quicker shutter speed and therefore fewer blurry shots. Is that true? I have only owned my rebel for about 8 months and love, love, love it, but I realize daily that there is so much more to learn!!!! Anyway, thanks for sharing!

  4. I completely understand the 2 year old and quick temper. It is definitely something I am wokring on. Saying things with a smile (even if I am not feeling it) seems to help...at least get the right reaction out of Abigail :)

  5. YOu look fabulous in all your belly shots! And what awesome goals you have choosen. I think we can all stand to love our husbands more! LOL!

    But I do have to admit my favorite goal of yours was your homebirth!!!!!! I had a home water birth with my youngest son. He is 2 1/2 years old now. It was the most amazing experience of my life and so much better of an experience birthing that my previous 2 hospital births. I can not wait for you to blog more about this!!! I think you will be thrilled with your experience!

    Good luck making your goals a reality!

  6. Enjoying your blog! We have a lot of the same goals!

  7. Great post, Susie. I'm so excited that you've chosen to plan for a homebirth. It looks like 2009 is going to be a great year for many people, including you and your family.

  8. wow susy!!!
    you look incredible.
    i love these pictures.
    they speak volumes.
    has anyone ever told you that you look really good in yellow? cuz if not then tell yourself that. :)
    be blessed!
    and remember that the best way to keep our goals is to:
    Make a Plan.
    Get Help. (from mentors and peers)
    Refuse to Quit.
    my churchs message was on goals last night.
    good stuff.
    take care! hugs.

  9. A really lovely post, Susie--and I get to post the first comment! I'm right there with you on the boiling point/toddler thing, and the love-that-man-I-married thing. And I wanted to let you know--how sorry I am that you guys are missing Joshua instead of holding him, as his first birthday rolls around. I'm glad our Lord has you in His arms, but I know that doesn't take away the pain by a long shot. May you feel his tears mingling with yours--I really think they do.

  10. Love love love the photo of you in the green. You look GREAT :)

  11. Have your man view my 'how to shave' videos on youtube (www.youtube.com/shavetutor): he can turn a painful chore into a pleasant diversion with a few simple changes.

  12. Good luck on your homebirth. I hope that it's a positive experience for you!

  13. This is a really lovely post. No wonder Matt loves you...what's not to love? I am really excited about the home birth decision. I know you wanted it for Joshua. I am praying for you to be able to have labor on your own this time too. The preggo picture is adorable. Love you sweetie!

  14. Great goals :) I am impressed that you are brave enough to try a home birth. I am trying to work up the courage to have natural labor this time around, and while it is something I most definitely want to do, I am also most definitely kind of scared. Anyhow, I hope you have a wonderful 2009, that you meet all your goals, and that you have fun doing it!!

  15. Excellent goals, Susie! There's no reason why you can't accomplish all that and more!

  16. Great post! I love the pictures and the goals. :) Good luck on that homebirth!

  17. This is a touching post. I share a lot of the same goals, and the way you stated and explained them- both in words and pictures- totally matches my thoughts. Thanks!

  18. Very good goals. I am excited for you at the prospect of a home birth. I also encourage you in your last goal. Cheers!

  19. you look wonderful. thanks for posting the belly shots :0) it gives someone who is dying to be pregnant a glimpse of what her future may hold! Congrats on the decision to have a homebirth. I am an aspiring midwife and am also planning a homebirth with my next baby. I will be looking forward to hearing your birth story! And I know what you mea about the crochet hook ;0) Arent those things the worst?!?!?

  20. Great shots! You have a beautiful family, and I agree with the earlier comment - Yellow is a great color for you. :)

  21. You look so cute!! Love all of your 'goals'... wishing I could have had a homebirth in there somewhere but didn't happen. Oh well! Can't wait to meet your new little girl! :)