We had a chat with our directors over the weekend and he asked us (told us) to take a break. We're going away from Tuesday to Friday of this week. I don't know about internet capabilities, but the computer will go with us. So posting may or may not happen.
The doctor agreed with me last week that I probably got sick because I had not taken a break since we lost Joshua. It's really pertinent that we have a break. And there's some other family things that need time and attention. We've let a lot of other things fall through the cracks since we discovered Joshua's diagnosis.
Someone asked [jen] what I think of when I see my wedding pictures now. I'm sort of curious... it's a loaded question. There could be a lot of answers to that. But besides all the serious things - I'll share a bit of silly stuff.
I was a wedding coordinator [sold wedding gowns] for David's Bridal stores in Rochester NY during college. I had a lot of fun, and got really "into" weddings. Haha. To this day when people start talking about weddings and dresses and all of that, my ears perk up. I got engaged about 2 weeks after I started the job, and got married that first summer I was there. I then worked up until 10 days before Oceana was born.
So when I see my wedding pictures here's a few things I think:
*I should have bought a veil, instead of being cheap and making it. The "structure" was good, but the fabric wasn't high enough quality and it looked dumpy before I ever went down the aisle.
*I should have had "more embellished" gown. I was always the one saying, "I don't want ANYTHING on my dress - totally plain!" And now I look at it, with it's same colour embroidery and 10 beads and thing... "Geez it's plain."
*I should have been stubborn with my bridesmaids when they said they refused to wear tea-length dresses. I let them get full-length dresses. But I wanted tea-length (mid calf and shorter).
*We should have skipped the boutonnière's for the guys, because they didn't wear suits. They were only wearing dress shirts and ties, so pinning a [too large] boutonnière on it made the shirt droop and the flowers break off at the stems.
*We should have made better ties. Or bought them. I was being cheap and made them. But they looked [and tied so horribly]. DSeiders can attest to that one - her husband got the worst one of the 5! His barely tied it was sewn so badly.
*I shouldn't have let stuff get to me that morning.
*I should have asked my sister-in-law Heather to be in the wedding.
*I should have sorted out getting the photos printed.
*I LOVE my flowers. [I designed and arranged them all].
*I LOVE my hair. [Sarah or Kyle & Sarah Funk on my blogroll did my hair].
*I LOV E my shoes. My husband is only an inch or two taller than me. So I searched high and low for the appropriate pair of shoes. I wasn't a fan of ballet flats at the time. I found champagne kitten-heeled strappy sandals for something like $20 at Payless!
*I was SO uncomfortable under that dress! Geez - between thigh-high stockings, heels, a longline bra and a petticoat - I was shimmying and shaking all day to make it feel even slightly comfortable. If only I'd bought the right sizes.
*I should have had Olympiada Zhurnist, the resident seamstress at David's Rochester, do my alterations. Instead I took them to a woman who was okay. But when I explained "reshaping" the waist she didn't get it. And my dress looked - ok - but not up to my standard.
*I'm so glad we had Meatballs in Red Sauce and Hot Buffalo Wings at our reception. I made a "bib" from a towel. No joke. And I sewed a piece of satin over it that said "BRIDE 7 July 2005"
HAHAHAhahaha. So funny. Will post the picture if I ever get time.
So, with all that said - please pray we have a safe trip, relaxing, and rejuvenating.